what changed?

what does it mean to be an attractive man? for the first time in my life people are saying i am attractive to my face and its throwing me off. im used to being outcast. people always looked away from me as if afraid i'd take their purse or beat them up. but now, now women stare at me really hard for a couple seconds then look away then look back, you know, as if in shock. did i change in some way imperceptible to myself? did the standard of beauty change? do i want to be admired for something that i have no control over? or should i just ride the wave until some random event happens and i am again a pariah?